A bucketful of hope

It took a couple of glasses of the good stuff, a long coversation, and a day at the cricket, but we've decided to fill up our bucket of hope again and give Round 5 a go.

These are our last two little 'people on ice', so we shall see what we shall see. It would be so lovely if they were hanging out in the chilly wilds of the clinic's freezer just to be with us.

And then when transferred they find it so nice and warm on the inside that they think it's just too toasty to leave...kind of like when you hop in front of a roaring fire after a freezing day outside. Not that we have too many of those sorts of days in Queensland!

So we won't speak of what will happen next until we know.  And in the meantime, even though it's nice and warm outside, and I can hear the cicadas singing like mad,  I'll just sit here and imagine crackling fires, mulled wine and presents...oh hang on...that's Christmas I'm thinking of!

Image source: This Christmas Tree collage from ekm79 on Etsy is so beautiful, warm and cosy looking it makes we want to jump straight in the picture!

Tears for the peas

I cried some tears for the little peas this afternoon, because they didn't make it.

Now I'm feeling a little (maybe a lot) deflated after round 4 and wondering should we continue on to Round 5 and use up our last two little snowpeople before the end of the year? Or do we shut up shop for a while and party over Christmas?

This definitely calls for a good long chat with the 'other person that matters most' over a glass of wine and piece of soft cheese tonight. You see it's not just about me, it's about him too...oh and our bank balance!

 Image source: Loxlyhollow Etsy shop

Antsing around

I feel like I've got ants in my pants this afternoon!  I know that I'm going to find out tomorrow whether Round 4 has worked or not and it's making me very jumpy. Have decided to wait for the bloodtest results.  No home test for me...makes sleep too stressfull!

Speaking of ants, I've figured out that those those Clexane injections feel like green ant bites. It's not the initial injection, but the sting afterwards that's the killer. *Ouch*

HOPEFULLY all this antsing around has been worth it!

Image source: Carlasonheim Etsy shop So appropriate!

Red dragonflies

There were seemingly hundreds of red dragonflies hovering in the airspace of our backyard on Sunday. They were just beautiful. A photo couldn't have captured the prettiness of it all but this gorgeous watercolour print by Peggitha comes very close.

I wonder what they were up to and where they were off to in such great numbers? Whatever and wherever it was, I'm so glad they passed through my garden. It was the bright spot of my Sunday.

Image source: Peggitha Etsy shop

A declaration of war

I've declared war on 'what if' statements.  You know, the ones that torture you at 4am in the morning and keep you awake so you know the exact time that the magpies start warbling.  Or the ones that stand in the corner of your head and mock you for thinking positive thoughts.

Well enough is enough!  Life is too short and there are too many wonderful things to be excited about to let 'what ifs' be in control. The truth is that the future can change in an instant and I don't want to be too distracted to miss mine.

What was it that Winston Churchill said? We'll fight them on the beaches (fine by me, love the beach)...we'll fight them on the fields and in the streets (if this means going to parks and retail therapy, count me in!), we shall fight in the hills (Beverly Hills? Because I do have the travel bug and I'm ready to plan the next holiday), we shall never surrender!

Image source: Amazon.co.uk  Love this British motivational tin sign from WW2.

Give me an A...

Give me an M...Give me a Y...what does it spell? AMY!

I've come to the conclusion that everyone needs a cheersquad.  It doesn't matter who is in your cheersquad, what matters is that they are cheering for you!

It doesn't even have to be your close friends and family.  Sometimes telling random people that you are in the the week before you know can be quite liberating.  When I say random, I don't mean running up to people in the street, but people like the nice lady in my pilates class for example.  Just knowing she is gunning for us is a nice feeling.

By the way, those who have said they have everything crossed for us, thank you and in a nice way, I hope you get msucle cramps from crossing so hard!

My plan is to gather every piece of positivity coming our way and channel it into those two little peas in a pod.

Give me a P....Give me an E....Give me an A....what does it spell? PEA!

Image source: Dudadaze Etsy shop I used one of her prints in an earlier post . I love Dudadaze's style.

Snap frozen peas

On Sunday I had two little snap frozen peas in a pod transferred. I say snap frozen becuase my fab technician told me that these little blastocysts had been chilled using a relatively new technique (Vitrification) which meant they were frozen in 3 minutes rather than over three hours. 

A little like the way they snap freeze veges to retain their freshness I would think (or not?) So in theory, these little ones should be as fresh and as sticky as they come! I mean, if these blastocysts were a Birds Eye product, we'd be singing a little ditty by now about how fresh they are...

So here's hoping that both or at least one of these two little peas in a pod decide stay around this time.  To help them along in the decision making process, we took them out on the town yesterday and showed them a good time. 

With their potential grandparents and cousin, we went and had a mango smoothie at Poets Cafe in Montville, then we had a little nap, then we went to the beach and made sandcastles and then we had fish and chips followed by icecream!  Can you seriously imagine a better day on the Coast?

 

I couldn't dream up a more perfect illustration for this post.  Those two little peas look almost EXACTLY like my two blastocysts! Love it. 

Image source: Etsy shop gnomesweetgnome